Real life moment:Can you believe I used to be almost 300lb?I..

Real life moment:

Can you believe I used to be almost 300lb?

I swear there are abs under there, at least that's what I tell myself to feel better. Like Lord just let me have a 6 pack already. Sheesh. 😂 Did you know that four fuck trophies came out of that belly?! Yep, a whole milf here. 👧👦👦👧

My body has seen 18 surgeries total and it is covered in scars. I have surgery again Thursday too. 😳🙄 What I see and what you see are not the same. And although I've always filmed myself, I've never shared publicly like you see here, but I am enjoying it so far.

Still, my stomach is my least favorite part of my body, that and my loose skin. Part of filming yourself is being vulnerable with all of your insecurities on camera. Learning to love my own body and myself has been such a process my entire life. I feel it likely is for many of us, creators and fans alike, just being present in our society can be so heavy.

So, today when you look in the mirror, I want you to tell yourself that you are amazing as you are. It can at times be easy to listen to societal standards, familial standards, the negative self talk, or opinions of others and think...I'm just not good enough. I'm here to tell you that's wrong and you are amazing exactly as you are.

I have been here almost two months and already I've seen so many things that could be different. This site has a great deal of negativity, petty high school behavior, and gossip. I'm here to try and balance the scales with positivity, love, and good vibes. Why? Time is short and life is hard enough you guys, we don't have to make it harder for each other.

I don't know alot about life ya'll but I know I've fought like hell for mine for years being sick. If you're a creator or fan, I'm here for you and want you to win in life. If you're having a bad day please don't be afraid to reach out and pop in my dms. I'm very easy to talk to, was a social work/counseling major, and am also a creator for creators.

If I take awhile to respond, miss a vote reward or do something wrong, please know it is not intentional and kindly let me know. I hope you read this Grisham novel til the end, if you did-I love you friend, and I hope you join me in making this site a better place for all of us. 💜