Once he’s really gone, I’ll make 10 times more and forget him in a past chapter. If he wanted any other ending he would have listened to me and helped me by now. Everyone’s telling me to just drop the deadweight and I appreciate the supportive letters to help me leave him. I’m working on it. Being human with feelings isn’t my best or strongest feature. I want to feel attractive or loved and i just can’t go to him for that ever.
I guess that’s why I love slipping away to the internet. My DMs are full of people who love me softly and fill me with wants, desires, joy and ambitions.
I’d rather be a princess or a goddess online than his lover in real life.
Someone told me to just stop including him mentally in anything or trying to trust him, rely on him or go to him for anything. I’m listening and the influence is working.
It’s time to move on.
I miss the days when I was easily turned on by Chad.
It‘s getting harder and harder to be attracted to him.
It’s bad enough that he doesn’t help me with important stuff, I can’t take much more of being distracted with the worry over his well being.
There’s nothing attractive about taking on more burdens when I never even get the help I need in the first place. There’s no point in fantasizing about a future with someone who’s going to be hospital-bound in less than 4 years waiting for lung transplants and loving someone who’s going to pass away in less than ten.
He came over with some food since he heard I was feeling under the weather. Him vaping 50+ puffs of nicotine into my only space is making me sicker and I lost my will to stream again. It makes me wish he didn’t even bother coming over at all. I’m barely attracted to him anymore. Sacrificing all the money I could have made these past four years as well as my mental health and happiness hasn’t been worth it. Im getting more and more apathetic about what happens to him with each passing day.
I know he doesnt care about helping me with work, making sure I’m happy or that he’s ruining my life making me worried sick and angry but I wish he would make changes for himself.
I’m mourning my past years and i give up on thinking he’s ever going to change or make my life better. I look forward to being in a completely different place this time next year mentally and physically. I did more than anyone else he’s ever dated and I hope to be as willing to lose him as he is willing to lose me soon. I can’t afford to be around someone who vapes 50+ times an hour into my only space, litters my place with empty energy drink cans and makes me not want to take pictures or stream. It doesn’t matter if I wish he was worth it if he never will be. I want to be happy and I will never get that with him.
I pray for people who will add to my life more than they take from it. I know I deserve it all. I want people who make me happy and productive instead of being this weird oversharing bummer. I’ve been asking him to leave my keys and cards every single time he visits and I know that he knows he’s losing me. He still chooses nicotine, alcohol, porn, doing useless shit on the internet and energy drinks over me every day.
I look forward to the day I wake up and want nothing to do with him anymore.
I wish I never helped him.
I find great comfort in watching easy to consume media. Mostly picturesque landscapes and fantasy fiction.
I’m currently studying on my couch some books on parks in Europe. Netflix’s The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina the Teenage Witch playing on the television in the background.
I suppose I quite enjoy coming off age storylines in fantasy settings. Even if it’s not my age demographic and I don’t find it strange at all if others do the same. Sometimes, I watch shows and films that star actors older than me but I’m especially yung at heart and I remember some of my most impactful stories was the Harry Potter Series, Artemis Fowl series, Eragon and…. I can’t recall.
It’s soothing to slip into simpler, magical times and live through or spectate a main character and their great blossoming moments in life. I get to learn about love, adventure, even a touch of history and good versus evil. I would say it develops me into a more empathetic, educated and imaginative person. When I rewatch sometimes I wanna be a main character, sometimes I just wanna be one of the aunts or teachers and I get to notice and appreciate more and different details every time I rewatch!
Any impactful shows, movies, books you wanna share?
I am also open to girl/girl collaborations if you have a Spider girl, spider gwen, Black Widow, anything Marvel hero Cosplay. Strap on content okay, just know I’m a strap on virgin. I’m happy with either role: wearing it or taking it.
And you know what, it doesn’t have to even be super hero anything. I have some cheerleading costumes and we could be maids or whatever you have in mind.
Bonus if your place is nicer than mine and if we can film scenes where you are or elsewhere. ☺️ 🏰 🌙 🇺🇸
I am also @maihero
#onlyfans #marvel #cindymoon #silk #comics #actors
Show me your body if you’re interested in being co-star for Spider-Man and Silk parody scene. 🎬
Must be
🕸️ Clean with Legal bill of health/ test results and willing to wear a condom.
🕸️ Non- smoking/ non-vaping anything outside of 420.
🕸️ Fit/healthy/muscular can fit into XL Spidey suit. I am trying to make money here and sell videos so they need to look good for the camera. Bonus if you’re taller than my past lover who is 6’6- 6’7.
🕸️ Single/ Not Married/ Not in a relationship. (closed/traditional relationships).
🕸️ Can get a hard on.
🕸️ Average to large size cock. (Open to small cocks if I’m being paid handsomely and it’s cucking/ humiliation/ domme scene/script.)
🕸️ Can last 4-5 minutes.
If still interested feel free to
🕸️ Tell me where you’re located
🕸️ Your socials
🕸️ Show me your work experience/ proposed setting
Notes
🕸️ I will **NOT** pay you. If anything, I should be paid a bajillion dollars for holding your 🍆 on camera.
🕸️ I want someone no maintenance/ no attachments/ someone who sees all of this as acting/ won’t end up stalking me or villainizing me for not talking or keeping up.
🕸️ I will **NOT** give you a percentage of my sales. Just don’t contact me if you want this I’m not entertaining any more of these.
🕸️ You may sell on your page and keep all that you make.
🕸️ I would prefer someone incognito/ not big on onlyfans/ newbie but I am open to collaborating with experienced people.
🕸️ A hand job or lap dance for the first video.
#cindymoon #silk #spiderverse #spiderman #onlyfans #parody #actors #marvel
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I don’t know what’s more impressive: how fast I make money or fast I spend it.
(Please don’t be wowed by the live with 1000+ usd raised in the pinned post. I already spent it getting a few refugee journalists smart phones. They’re going to be learning and writing articles. I know it’s going to make a huge difference. WE did that. All things I’ve accomplished is thanks to YOU all, so please feel free to take pride in what WE did. I raised more awareness on the stuff going on in Israel and palestine/ Gaza on the IG instead of selfies and I don’t really care if I lose followers for it. )
( I’m happy doing that.)
( I’d be happier with some silent billionaire bitch boy cucks tossing a couple billion at me.)
(I’d settle for a couple million.)
(Hired an assistant.)
(I’m trying to break this fever. My body is sweating. And aching. I know it’s not sexy to talk about any of this but I truly cannot help it 😭 and relaying it makes me feel better. Chad says he’s bringing me soup. I feel like someone tricked me into thinking there was a spoon of brown sugar for me and when I swallowed it it’s actually sand. Idk how I’m typing this much. I wish I wasn’t put in this weird position where I think complete isolation is better for me. According to my poll, most people rightly believe I should stay home (10 for just wear a mask, 13 for staying home) so I’m not going to the tech event unless my colleague still wants me to go and i won’t go if I still have a fever and I definitely wouldn’t go without a mask. )
(I’m adhd and on the spectrum, deal with it)
(You’re all my best friends.)
Okay, I got it out of my system and got some sound wisdom and advice from my counsel/followers. Thanks for being supportive.
Open to buying ads, sfs and friends list. Just let me know !
I am
Thank you for the fan-fiction submitted so far. Here are some of my Halloween decorations so far. I cleared my messages. Editing photos and putting out more content for purchase. 💝 Feel free to send me Halloween photos, decor or whatever content you feel like sharing. I’m okay. I let it out of my system. I’ve already asked Chad a thousand times to be Spider-Man but he doesn’t want to wear the suit or have sex with me so I’m still looking for someone else/ another lover. This is ridiculously stupid. I want sex from someone who’s going to be no maintenance and doesn’t ask for 50% of my onlyfans. I don’t want to waste my time anymore with people who can’t see me for my worth or appreciate me. Ghosting him now. 👻
If I have people willing to suck cock for me and you won’t even take pictures of me, take me on a date or have sex with me then what’s the fucking point of dating you? 🙄
@maihero
#cindymoon #halloween
If you won’t wear the XL spidey suit and record a 2-5 minute video with me then you can’t be mad when I find someone who would love to do it. Idk what the fuck you want from me. 🙄
Looking for someone horny and happy to help.
I just want real b/g content already. It’s been 4 years. I don’t want to waste any more time fighting someone to get some.
Another update: My website for journalists and refugees is almost ready. If you’re a journalist, writer, activist, refugee, volunteer, general good person, humanitarian or anything related like that and think you would benefit from the publicity of being on my website or want to volunteer/contribute, come talk to me. 🌐
(The site is still in works but it’s called The Voices of People dot com. Most of the articles are centered around Rohingya refugees f🕸️rcibly removed from Myanmar but I have future plans to widen the subject so we can help as many people as possible. This work is very important to me. I’m happy that I get to help boost and highlight those who are living a completely different, much harder life than me; one I cannot even imagine because I am so blessed and safe at home alone.)
We are open to submissions. Especially if you come from a country where journalism is illegal or has been shut down. I am located in America so I am safe and free to post your writings and photos. You may remain anonymous and hide behind me.
Hope this helps!
- Cindy Moon
#cindymoon #journalism #humanrights #volunteer #writers #photographers
Hey, minions. 🤗 I have 10 openings for subby roles. Make a long list of fun stuff for me to say in a document and tell me what role you currently want to play. If I choose your scripts then I’ll read an act some of them out and send it to you for free. I will rename you the role you choose and add a special emoji next to your name. Only 10 people! Knight, prince, coach, mister slave boy, bitchboy, slut, whatever role is fine (probably).
If you’re a medal holder, I will likely read some of them for free and send them to u for you to appreciate my acting skills. 🤓
#cindymoon #roleplay #actor
Choices for today. I’ve got 55 messages left on Cindy moon. I’ll give myself a minute or less to answer each one and they should be cleared by tonight if I don’t go live. 🏰🌙🌹
I want to see if I can get in the top 2% or 1% again before the end of the year. Sorry to everyone for being distracted, concerning and inconsistent. There’s been a lot going on in real life and I think it’s time for me to focus and put in a little more energy into this. 💝
Looking for writers and sext scripts. I paid/commissioned a couple girls a couple hundred dollars for a play book/guideline. One never gave me anything at all and I want someone who takes all of this a little more seriously. I’m kinda asexual at this point to be completely honest and would love to make friends with more experienced dommes or writers. I spent my advertising budget on helping people so if you’re willing to take promo in exchange for knowledge we can do that, too. Thank you. 🌹
