I could tell he wasn’t feeling me towards the end and it is what it is. He doesn’t consider what I had to offer good enough and I have to move on, keep growing and remember im single. It’s not the end of the world. I just gotta keep swimming. I gotta work on my council of mister slaves and get comfortable talking to them about work as well as not caring anymore so I can try to catch up to the ladies making 300k a month. I offered to be there for him but he probably never opened up cuz I have an onlyfans. I understand. I can’t do more.
Anyways, I want the work and sheckles part figured out so I can relax.
I had a weird thought that I would build an empire with someone and live happily ever after with someone who was big enough to handle me. It was a silly daydream and we don’t have time for that. It’s time to live my best life and be with the hottest people or person I can find and maybe live and love a little more carefree the way women my age are.
Someone said to me, “It’s not about being the only one. It’s about being the favorite one nowadays.”
If they get the chance to experience something like this I’d want them to enjoy it, not be scared of me or all of this. It’s supposed to be fun and sexy.
We’ll figure it all out eventually.
#cindymoon #blog #journal #silk
I’m trying to figure out wether I should post 1 of the censored stills with me and Ken stand in as promo/publicity to bring the web traffic or not.
I’d hate for Ken to see it but he asked me to delete our content and I needed b/g content. I wish he really liked me more, that we could have been each other’s, that we were more compatible, that it worked out but it is what it is. We went on 1 date and I’m probably doing that thing where im too attached.
It’s acting when I think about the content I made with Ken stand in. It’s acting is what I remind myself. I’m also I guess, single… which doesn’t erase my feelings or really make me feel better. I know I should be more baddie than this. Also, that I shouldn’t be sharing so much stream of consciousness chatting, but I can’t help myself rn.
If he wants to be disassociated with me and not sign the form cuz he’s scared of me, changed his mind or thinks his work will recognize his dick, I gotta respect that. Consent is important and standard. It would have only taken 2 minutes to fill out and I didn’t need his face, but whatever. It is what it is.
He couldn’t risk being associated with me cuz of work and there was bits of me he didn’t like either, which was understandable. It is what it is. I wanted him to play ken but at the end of the day, I want him to be happy and have a simple life. What I offered wasn’t enough and it’s okay if I’m not what’s best for him. There’s nothing more left to say even if I’m still hanging on to the idea of him that isn’t real. Thinking too much again. 😅
Thanks for loving me as I am and giving me time to recharge and respond. If you’ve taken care of me before and I didn’t send u a bonus Ty pic, lmk always with a heart emoji. I love u. 🎄
Thanks for taking care of me. Your support means the world to me and im excited for the rest of December. Thanks for filling me with happy feelings and love. Good night. 🥹♥️🎄🫶🐱
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My last stream was supposed to be sexy but I ended up being chatty cuz. 😶🌫️🤣 I might jump on again after I charge the phone a little more. Thanks for taking such good care of me, angels. 😇
I’m still getting my head on my shoulders so thanks for your patience and following my rules so I can keep my sanity. 🎄🎁🫶 I ask people not to talk so that I don’t get scared away or demotivated.
(Don’t go to the strip club empty handed and expect the dancers to be nice to u. 🤣)
I didn’t tag the other creator so I unsent and will be resending the fun stuff! Thennnn jumping on live!
One day I’m gonna figure out how to escape the internet. 🤣
Until then, enjoy my pickings and gatherings. 🎄🐱🎁💙
#cindymoon #007 #silk #poems
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Good morning, Angel! The sun has risen and the world is yours to take. 😄
I am sending love and strength to you. I have full confidence that you will make the best of today. ✌️😍
Please enjoy as many positive pleasures as you deserve and know you are sincerely loved.
Cheering for you. ☺️👋
#cindymoon #007 #silk
Every second of every day, I see myself as an activist, loving person and poet. I don’t think what I do for work to keep a roof over my head or my loved ones fed has anything to do with me. No one pays for my efforts/hard work/writing/word art, but I don’t think it’s any indication of my worth.
Just as an artist who can’t sell their paintings for millions in their lifetime or a musician who might only make $15 dollars after performing their heart out all night isn’t any indication of their worth.
I don’t think anyone besides my onlyfans subs can see the real me but I’m okay with that. Ken didn’t follow my onlyfans and only knew about me from TikTok for I guess a year. (My TikTok was NOT a good representation of me.) I hope to create and produce more various content next year and im excited 4 the journey and adventures 2 come. I plan on becoming more skilled, confident and happy with myself.
I love the creative, entertaining and funny poems that come out of my mind like magic. I hope when I’m gone others may enjoy them as much as I’ve enjoyed writing and creating them. I plan on getting back on Facebook and joining groups so that I can socialize properly again with society and become smarter at the parts that I want to be smarter at. There’s a lot I’ve been dreaming about that I want to try to work at even if I don’t succeed in this lifetime. There’s so much to look forward to in the new year and I’ll relish in the happy christmas energy until then.
Anyways, time for chipotle before I type so much I forget to eat again. 🤣
#cindymoon #silk #writer.
This is from 2 censored pics sold in DMs the other night. Would have been neat to hit 1k-3k a night like all the successful models I follow. I hope to 1 day work hard enough to be as consistently successful as they are. 😄 I know someone who used to be a hair stylist and they make 30k a month now doing onlyfans. 🤣 they make a goal of 3k a day. Amazing!
I tried being there for Ken and was kinda head over heels in love with him for a minute. I think we both realized things about each other that just wasn’t going to work out. I have my flaws and challenges so I understand. They were good to me for the most part. I was always there and open to listening but they never shared any real details and I never pushed. We’d been talking for months. I kept telling them I would have taken care of them and they started saying stuff like, “that’s just not true.” And “I don’t think you really know yourself.” It was really weird and jarring for me. During our falling out he pointed out things I hated about myself that I already knew, how I struggled to take care of myself and real life. I wish he didn’t do that cuz it felt like he was kicking me while I was already down. Like telling a fat person they’re fat. Fat people know they’re fat, they don’t need u telling them and reminding them. 😑
I’m not going into details but it became obvious to me that they had been keeping me at arms length and I realized a few things that broke the wall for me. It was really offputting to not have anyway to prove myself or be good to them. I can’t really do anything if I’ve offered to be there for them and they’re the one who doesn’t want to open up, share details or allow me to provide/show love. It opened my eyes a little more and we clashed until I caved and left them alone like they clearly wanted. The person that I idolized didn’t exist anymore and I realized a few things that weren’t adding up. I miss the fantasy and mirage of the hero in my mind but there’s no way for me to bring it back now. I was enamored for the right reasons and I realized they saw me differently than how I saw me.
I was willing to commit to them which is insane in this line of work and had offered them 50 percent of a website if they could help me figure out stuff. I thought I was being generous but if that’s not good enough for them, then I can’t do anything about that. Im going to be more business reasonable for myself from now on and let my council of mister slaves have access to me instead. I guess I gotta do this solo and look out for me only like im supposed to. I’ve always been one of those overly generous lovey dovey people when I’m enamored with someone and it’s time to be an adult and more business serious. I’m happy to have my lessons and allow them to move on and I will move on as well. I’m heartbroken but it is what it is. I’m going to give myself happy holidays at home.
No more chads or ken.
Thankful for the ken stand in, they were a good model for the shoot.
I’m taking lessons from Venus and ______ from here on out.
#cindymoon #007 #silk #venus
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If I could choose to be any God, it would definitely be Venus or Zeus.
1 gently censored photo of a man in my hand.
If you already purchased this digital artwork, let me know with a heart and I will send u the uncensored version or another one. ♥️
#cindymoon #silk #venus #007
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007: SO WHAT HAD HAPPENED WITH KEN WAS
???: no one cares, Cindy. We’ve been waiting for years to see legit content that included bonus body parts. It literally did not matter who it’s attached to. We love you. Enjoy your holidays and let people take care of you. We just want to see u happy.
007: …
007: 🥹🌹🫶♥️
Look how clean the other half of my living room is!!!!
I’m so happy. It was cleared with 1 day of work. I paid them, too. I just needed a little help and support. Still sourcing and trying to find more of the tile I made my final choice on for the shower. 🫶
Bigger and better every day. ☺️♥️
